Joy Unconfined

So I was talking to Kamotion while she waited in the airport to leave and she had said she’d finally seen my blog because she was looking at Somebody else’s blog… so I had to go see my link there, when I got home… and subsequently was given all SORTS of URLs for bloggy toys [...]

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“I’ll be in the bathroom. Get started on your homework.” “Ok.” ….. “Mom?” “Mom!” “Maaaaaahm…” “MOMMY!” “WHAT?! I’m in the BATHroom! JAYZUS!” “Mom? I…” “You what? Is the house burning down?” “No, I…” “Is there a burglar in the apartment?” “No, I jus…” “Because if there is not an emergency of equivalent importance to those [...]

I’m hungry. That’s not from the weekend. I just am. Hungry. No, the weekend was eventful. It was long, and short. Short, because weekends are never long enough, especially when one is surrounded by fun people doing interesting things. It was long because it was physically demanding (who’d have thought standing and holding two bouquets [...]

To maintain five separate blogs? (Alright, six, if you count the completely unused and never updated one on the blinky, noisy, visually assaulting hell of Myspace…) Sometimes they’re updated simultaneously, with the exact same post. Sometimes things are posted on one that aren’t posted on others. One of them NEVER has the same posts as [...]

So said Gandhi. The podling feels that finding this quote in the cap of my iced tea is quite humorous. She says it applies to me so very well. I replied that there is, perhaps, more to life than increasing its speed, but oftentimes it is rather invigorating to see just how fast one can [...]

and have posted nothing. Why is that, do you think? mmm… It most likely has much to do with how lazy I truly am. But now I’m blogging. Tonight, I get to see one of my L’s. And she’ll come to stay with me tonight! Yaaay! Slumber party! Yaaay! Alright, probably not. We’ll likely be [...]

Links to kinda sorta explain the reference I made in an earlier blog. In a nutshell, a zar ritual is a rhythm/dance ritual performed as a therapeutic practice for someone who is troubled. That’s a bit of a simplistic explanation. There are subtleties, and if you really want to understand, check out these links. Trance [...]

But… I probably wouldn’t have paid attention. Still… I suppose someone could have tried, not least the object of addiction. I may bear the responsibility for the behavior, but I know who bears responsibility for orchestrating the circumstances leading up to it. It was deliberately done. Chapter 4 is quite interesting.

I mean, I felt it… SAW it over two years ago. Then promptly closed my eyes and dived right in. I guess I can do nothing but realize that I deserve the absolute pain and humiliation I’m feeling. But it still hurts. I know I have value. Why do keep finding people who are so [...]